كل عام و انتم بخير

that's it , I give up ! two days ago were spent in trying to type in Arabic ,with a failure in each time ! as i was using arabic-keyboard.org to do so , all the post is gone ! anyway, i will try to recall it in English =)

By going back two or three weeks from now , remembering Ramadan and how i spent it and what i didn't fulfil during its spiritual nights and days, and how i was struggling to read some pages of the holy qur'an due to some reasons that distracted me from doing my duties in Ramadan . Eeven though , i didn't give that much during Ramadan , but i feel that i've received lots of its values ! sometimes , it is not all about how many times i've finished reading the holy qur'an , or how many prayers i've done , its all gone in blink if it wasn't performed from the depth , its all worthless if it was a mere reading without a contemplation. So , i pray to Allah to accept the few things that i've achieved during the holy month of Ramadan.

Two days ago was Eid Alfitr , i was longing to attend its prayer since two years ago ! because i didn't have the chance to go in the previous two years , and two days ago i've attended it !! , i sat deliberatly next to women that i didn't meet before , just to get the chance to greet them and to congratulates them after the speech , due to some disruption in loudspeakers ,we couldn't carry on listening to the speech ,therefore , all the women started to hug and greet each other , but , what kept me wondering that the women who were beside me ignored me and just went to those who -i think - they are known to them treating me like an alien , so i went to see my friends , teachers and my neighbors as i was really disappointed because of the behavior of somebody who saw me and went away without saying anything.. that's not the spirit of Eid Al Fitr which i was expecting , i thought that we greet everybody no matter who they are ! anyways, after that , i went in rounds to visit all my relatives , hoping that didn't miss anyone , and who i couldn't meet , i hope that you are having a happy Eid .

" I'm bored , I want to be back to my routine =.= " quoted from me .